When I was in first grade, each of us were given a Friday, that would be our day of show and share. Ours alone. It was frightening to me, since I didn’t really like to talk much back then, especially in front of people. I decided that the only way I could do it, was if I brought my prized possession to show. My mom went through a phase of making china dolls and I had a few which I loved. The one I wanted to bring in to share was the bride doll. It was the only one she ever made like that. She made it for me.
The day that it was my turn, I brought it in to share. I whispered in front of the class for 10 minutes. All about my doll, her name, her clothes and that my mommy had made her just for me. When I was done, I asked the teacher if she’d put it away where no one could see it or touch it until it was time for me to go home.
I didn’t want her to be ruined, or broken, which I knew was possible, so I had it put away and I stopped talking about it.
Last week, I opened up a tiny hidden closet inside of me and shared the contents with you all. I wanted to do it. I wanted to share, to get it out, maybe to help someone else. You all supported me in ways I can’t even begin to tell you. You helped fill me up with kindness, when I needed it most.
Now I need to re-shut the door.
I have tried for a week to answer the comments in those two posts I wrote last week. Your words, your kindness deserves that. You all deserve a response. I am the person who sends thank you cards and I have truly wanted to answer each email and comment I received last week. But I can’t seem too. I open and shut them, only to re-open and re-shut them. I get a little panicky if I try to respond. Or well, a lot panicky.
Each comment and email meant the world to me. Truly. More than I can say. I need to shut that door though. It’s just too much. I am a bit too fragile still to leave the closet door open right now. I need to shut it. I can’t respond like I had wanted and I need to stop trying, for my own mental health.
I hope you’ll all accept this as a thank you. Truly, thank you.
13 Responses to Sometimes thank you just has to be enough
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You do what is best for you. That’s all you can do. Protecting your heart is most important.
.-= Heather´s last blog ..Your Future Mayor =-.
Oh sweetie, please don’t feel obligated to say anything as a reply, that makes it seem like work anyways! Really, this place here, this platform, it’s all yours and you can do with it as you wish. It is here for you, as are we, your friends! No worries my friend! Hugs and love from AZ, @1mcmommy
.-= Patty´s last blog ..Happy Vanentines Day! =-.
We don’t expect a thank you. We posted our comments to support you and help you heal. If my comment helped at all, them I’ll be happy.
.-= Marla´s last blog ..My Beloved =-.
Elise Reply:
February 15th, 2010 at 4:53 pm
@Marla, Exactly what Marla said. Truly.
You don’t need to respond. We left those comments because we love you and want to support you. A simple thank you here is more than enough. You keep that door closed as long as you need to.
Love and hugs.
.-= Lisa´s last blog ..Baby Feeding Gear =-.
Here you go apologizing again! I love you for it though because it’s part of you. We all want what’s best for you and your well being that’s the whole point. We understand completely. Anyone who doesn’t can see me about it. :0)
.-= Lu´s last blog ..My Story Part 8 I think… =-.
Hugs and kisses.
.-= anymommy´s last blog ..Closer to Love =-.
I am sure the others, as I, responded because we care about you and wanted you to know. We do not do it for recognition nor do we need a response. We just need you to know we care, and all you have to do with that is just feel it. Hugs.
.-= Vixen´s last blog ..Why It’s "Cool" To Be A Blogger =-.
Bridget Reply:
February 15th, 2010 at 3:13 pm
@Vixen, Agreed.
xoxo
.-= Bridget´s last blog ..Some where along the way I lost myself. =-.
Thankyou is enough. Of course it is. And thankyou for being so honest.
Some bloggers never respond to comments; some don’t respond to specific posts (I’ve done this with particularly raw posts where I just don’t have the words (and none of them have been as intensely private and personal as yours): no one stopped reading because I didn’t reply). You don’t have to say anymore than feels right to/for you: the rest of us are going to understand. <3
.-= Chibi Jeebs´s last blog ..Change is afoot =-.
Do whatever you need to do so that you can feel safe. Hugs.
.-= Suebob´s last blog ..I’m going to hell for laughing at this =-.
i just want you to know that i think of you. no response required.
.-= nic @mybottlesup´s last blog ..beautiful blogger award =-.