Right now, I am angry. I am so angry, I can barely put it into words. I’m not angry at one particular thing, I’m just plain angry.
I’m angry at my situation. At my life. At my ex. I’m so angry with him. I had this idea of what my life was like, what my life was going to continue to be like. He changed that forever. I didn’t know forever was only until he got bored. He broke my heart. Some days I do okay with it. Some days I don’t.
Right now I am angry and it’s threatening to eat me up
I can’t talk about it in this space. I wish I could. But I just can’t. It’s not fair to him. It’s not fair to you all.
I’m going to be quiet for a few days. Here, in this space. Online. I’ll be back when I’m not wanting to physically beat someone up. I thought yesterday I could be online, but I just can’t. I am wanting to rant about things that I’m seeing, things that I’m reading, that maybe wouldn’t bother me in a week. Just can’t seem to distinguish if it’s things that are bothering me really, or if I’m just angry and stupid Internet drama is easier to be angry at then just deal with why I’m really angry.
To make sure I don’t step into shit I can’t handle dealing with right now, I’m just going to be quiet.
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Taking a little break can be good. Helps clear your head.
Also? Taking a pillow and beating the shit out of your car with it helps blow off steam. Or, err..so I’ve heard. Yeah. Heard. That’s it.
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Lu Reply:
July 23rd, 2010 at 10:11 am
@avasmommy, Ditto. We are here though. You know that. It’s ok to be mad.
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You are loved. So very loved.
Take care of you, my friend.
XO
I’m angry with him too. Y’all were a lot like us and when I picture if that was us it makes me angry with him. It’s not fair and i’m sure there were times when you thought hm, you’re no prize. It was never an option though for you to leave. Why was it for him? Or for ANYONE who does this stuff? Or even for anyone to mess up and ruin things? It sucks Issa. I don’t blame you. Take as long as you need. xo
Hey Issa – hugs my friend. Most of what you are feeling is so noermal and totally understandable. It completelly sucks to lose the life you thought you were going to have. It’s healthy to acknowledge that. And there are days when my anger still consumes me at the unfairness of the situation, but they are becoming less and less, if that is any consolation to you. It’s raw and it’s real. Sending you hugs and love.
Tricia xx
PS : You deserve much better and one day it will become clear to you. Time makes things clearer. *hugs* xx
Tempting as it is to vent to the internet, I agree with you that it’s safest not to do so. It’s ok to be angry. I hope things get better soon, though, because angry isn’t fun.
Taking a break can be a very good thing sometimes. I hope your break gets you to a good place, a happier place.
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It’s OK to be angry, and I hope that you find a way to vent that anger. And take all the time you need to take care of yourself… Take care, Issa.
you are loved.
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Just keep breathing. We’ll be here. Hugs!
If you need me you know where to find me girl.
xo
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Be angry. You absolutley have that right and suppressing the anger you feel will not help. Believe me when I say although changed forever, you will find your new normal. This is a stage you must face, And pass through. It is not permanent, and while it happens we will all still be here. Take the time, feel it and explore it. When you’re ready you will release it. We will all still be here. Peace, my friend x
((Hugs)) Sometimes stepping back from whatever is eating us up or pissing us off is the only way to go. Take some time this weekend to decompress and maybe get some time for yourself. Or sleep on the couch…
Do what you need to do and take care of yourself.
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aw, sweet pea. i hope you catch a break.
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I’m sorry. Sometimes I think you need to feel the way you feel and just get to the other side.
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As others have said, it’s okay to be angry Issa. I would be so angry too. Crap, who wouldn’t be? Your feelings are valid, and your acknowledgment of them and your honesty about them is healthy. Be gentle with yourself, and allow yourself to process your feelings in your own way and time. Your true friends will be there for you, caring and supportive, however long that takes.
Yeah, it sucks. You have a right to be angry and this is a great place to do it – where you are loved and appreciated.
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Since the nap gods have decided to bother someone else today and I got a few minutes to myself, I came over from Kirsten’s blog for the first time. I caught up through your archives, and well, I’m emotionally drained and can only imagine the anger. So thankful you have great friends, an empathetic internet-world, and a wealth of wisdom and honesty to pull you through.
So sorry. To calmer days.
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