I am sad. I am having trouble with coming home to reality. It makes it worse that my kids are gone until Saturday morning.
I was sad and lonely enough, that I went and picked up the dog. If you know me, you may find that funny, since I am not a huge fan of my dog.
I miss my friends. I miss feeling that supported. Four days just wasn’t kong enough to hold me over. Maybe it was. I don’t know. Maybe I just need a few more days and I will be okay. Maybe I just need my kids. Possibly I need to start planning my next weekend getaway.
The thing is, I met all of my closest friends online, so it’s not as if I’m not good at this way of friendship. Normally it works out okay. Normally I deal with it just fine.
Four days straight of hugs and conversations in person, though, reminds me what I am missing. When I come home and don’t get invited to see a new baby in the family. Because its not my family anymore. When I go pick up my dog from a friend watching her, and my friend doesn’t even care enough to ask how my trip was. Because I’m not really her friend anymore.
It all reminds me that I have the greatest support system and the greatest friends in the world, they just don’t happen to live anywhere near me.
It’s hard, that’s all. It’s hard to be home. I had a blast, an absolute blast, but tonight? I’m sad and I miss my friends.
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I’m a joiner
I got back on Sunday night but I haven’t really landed yet.
Jet-Lag and Miss-My-Friends-Lag.
*cough*Mom2.0-April-New-Orleans*cough*
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That’s awful and I’m so sorry.
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Feel so lucky to have had some time in your room to chat. And I can’t shake the blogherblues either.
I am deep deep in melancholia too, my friend. Need a weekend in (near) San Francisco??
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Even though I’m not one of your missed friends, I’ve been there – to inspirational conferences. And then you come home.
There’s a great book called “After the ecstasy, the laundry”, which I actually heard adapted to a speech about how to transition after experiences (and workshops) that inspire, excite and transform you. Once you come back to the “real world”, there is definitely a transition period and it’s not easy.
The trick is to use that momentum and spirit to sustain and propel you in the next few days, weeks, months. Sure, there’s “laundry” to do when you get home (both literally and figuratively), but sooner than later you’ll get to turn your incredible experience into action.
Ugh… I feel your pain. Most of my friends are friends online and overseas as well. Friends I had to make to help sustain me while so far away from everyone else … living in a 3rd world country does that.
I already miss the gals I met this past weekend. I needed the time away – especially since my husband is in Iraq for the next 49 weeks.
I’m here online if you ever want to chat…
i’m sad and i didn’t even get to go!
My re-entry has been bumpy too… Just trying to hang on to the love and inspiration I got out of that weekend. Because of people like you. Actually, mostly because of you specifically!
Love you my friend.
It’s so understandable hon. The transition back after such a wonderful four days must be hard, especially this year with the changes you’ve been through. Ultimately you’re going to be okay, and getting your children back will very likely help. The quiet in the house after all the commotion and support and love is probably extra noticeable and lonely right now. I’m sorry you’re feeling so sad. Time will help as you readjust. Transitions are hard. I’m sure your friends are missing you terribly too. ((Hugs))
My best friend lives in Australia. It super sucks. I’m feelin’ ya. ♥
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I wish you could move away from there without issue. You need to be closer to a better support system. hugs.
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Oh friend. I am sorry. You know my heart hurts for you.
BTW that baby will always be family b/c you have kids, so those people need a quick call from me. That’s redonkulous.
I know it is going to be a stretch until Saturday, but you will make it. I am here. Always. Love you.
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I’m sorry. I wish your friend would have welcomed you back with a hug. Snuggle that dog for the time being and your babes will be there soon.
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xoxoxo.
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I can understand how you feel. I live 3,000 miles away from my family, but in the same town as my in-laws. Sometimes, I feel very alone when it comes to family functions.
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I am sorry that you are having a hard time. It was hard for me the last couple of days, but today I think I am doing better altho I still miss you all like crazy!
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I think you should start planning your next trip. A mini-blogher that is just with your friends. I think it would make you feel good to know that you can see the people you love more than once a year.
But hey- what do I know? I’m too scared to go to the real blogher, I would probably never manage to force myself to go to a fake one.
I hope things are starting to look up and re-entry is getting a little easier.
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Same here.
What a wonderful blessing it was to meet them. ((HUGS))
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