I just came within a few minutes of deleting this blog. Of deleting my Twitter and Facebook accounts. I am truly still contemplating it. Would I have regretted it? I don’t know. Maybe. Probably.

I need a break. I’m taking a break before I do something that I’ll regret.

I’m tired. Tired of the constant drama. Tired of reading about branding and SEO’s and why I need to do this a certain way. Tired of watching the same trolls treat people like crap. The same dam trolls who ran off friends of mine, four years ago, are still terrorizing people. Just for kicks.

Tired of hearing about what people are selling or getting for free, instead of them sharing about their lives. Tired of contests that people never actually win on Twitter. I’m tired of writing a post and having it basically re-said somewhere else, by someone bigger and then watching everyone sing that persons praises for a week. I’m tired of caring about stuff like that. I shouldn’t care. But I do. I’m know that I’m a little bity nothing in the community. However, I wonder what it is about me that makes me un-linkable. I mean, sure write basically the same thing I did. Fine. But at least link to me. I know that I shouldn’t care. Heck, I like the person. It’s not the first time. In fact, it’s not even the first time in the past month.

I used to not care when this happened. I always say, I do this for me. I do this because I love it. Right now? I don’t love it. Right now, it’s not fun. I’m over all the drama. I don’t do this for money, I don’t care if I get free stuff. I promise, I don’t. But I do think that the blogging world has changed a lot in the past few years and maybe…maybe I just don’t belong in it anymore.

I used to love this space. I used to love coming here and writing. I loved reading what everyone else wrote. It seems like a big group of people who I used to talk too, who used to blog frequently are now barley around. People get busy, people get bored. It’s okay, it’s life. But right now, I am just not sure that I belong.

I’m sure I sound like a big ole hypocrite whiner. I guess if you’d like to call me that, you can. I’m sure I deserve it.

I’m going to take a break. Maybe a week. Maybe longer. I have two full time jobs to do next week and kids who are on spring break. That’s only part of the reason. Mostly I need to decide once and for all, to not care. To write because I want too, not because I care if people comment. To be truly okay with who I am in this community. To remember what it was that I loved about this. Until then? I’ll be taking a break.

*I’ve gone back and forth for ten minutes on closing comments. I am not, only because it makes me crazy when people do that.